Thursday, 16 June 2011

inspiration of June













Most coloured photos are from Nathalie Joos, a fantastic blogger. And others are found from other blogs. can't remember where they are from.

Scorching summer night is always sleepless.

Tuesday, 17 May 2011

兩周schedule

1.把天花板的壓克力玻璃重做好
2.做好床頭布
3.拿改好的婚紗'窗簾跟確定要拍哪幾件衣服
4.採訪陳珊妮以及借衣服還衣服
5.採訪廣編Joanna以及B&Q CEO以及海洋拉那,一共三篇八頁
6.採訪七月號要用的狗狗拍照
7.決定好哪些名人照片要用在七月
8.申請六月初出差的費用
9.把六月初要訪問的所有採訪人選全都訂好時間
10.確定9月十號的訂婚,確定七月的拍照
11.確定喜餅
12.採訪陳綺貞,訂車子,申請費用,陳綺貞小世界
13.拍男人底下穿什麼的四個男人
14.喬好曹格採訪的所有東西
15.訂購洋蔥餅送給倫敦的大家
16.想好Longines的訪問內容

Thursday, 12 May 2011

十二月

十二月還是穿著一件短袖上衣跟卡其褲來跟我見面。

每一次電話裡,他總要提起四年前的往事,以及我有多麼不夠朋友。其實我在倫敦,在巴黎,偶爾總會想起跟他一起去上海與北京,躺在首都的飯店裡,耳朵還沒辦法安靜,剛剛秀上喧鬧的聲音與旋轉的燈紅酒綠,如收音機裡撥放的廣播放得太大聲,他細細碎碎叨念著,喜歡打開CNN看新聞,一身紐約客的模樣,手裡卻正準備把路邊買來的油炸宵夜分贓吃掉。炸辣椒火腿與豆腐。

十二月就是有他的一套。什麼事情都有自己的一套,就像得了進門前要先跳起來三次那樣的強迫症。想事情的時候皺眉,煩惱的時候咬指甲,指甲肉的弧線隨著牙齒嚙咬,成了十個很漂亮剛巧的半圓形。他喜歡八零,就好像他喜歡David Bowie跟當年他過大的墊肩。

父親節跟母親節與爸媽的生日,這個好像不曾住過山裡,不曾做過任何土氣事情的十二月,就會趕著在當天來回,跑到南部去,當一個有點太過年衰的孩子一夜。

[妳就是太刻意了]十二月老是這麼說我。但是他自己長年以來總是活在自己已經設定好的刻意形象裡,好比說大的方框鏡片,寬大腿管與窄小腿管的褲子,擁有幾十雙同一運動品牌的鞋子,一定要住在某間香港的酒店,喜歡上同一間吃習慣的館子。他所刻意擁有的是一種不會改變的好品味, 不知道從哪一年哪一月決定這麼開始的,但是有效期限卻是永遠。

我不經意地一邊夾麵,嘴裡還在嚼著半筋半肉的牛肉片,一邊隨口問起十二月最近談戀愛了沒。我從沒期待他會回答我,因為這五年多來,沒有一次他正經地答覆我,沒有一次他告訴我有,直到這次。牛肉片差點跟著下巴掉下來了。

有啊,喂妳最大嘴了,妳不要跟別人說喔。我假裝自己很鎮定,但只能用說笑來帶過,其實太過訝異他的太過誠實。

他等下會來啊。

喂你不要騙我喔,又拿一些我熟的老朋友當幌子,來了就知道你又耍我。

唉唷他來了你就知道啦。

我知道十二月在偷偷觀察我反應,卻又趁他的伴轉身離去點菜的時候,偷偷囑咐我要陪他聊天。不曉得是真的認真了,或者他只是難能可貴的對我開誠布公,可是我看著他們一起,衷心地為他高興。

Tuesday, 10 May 2011

peur et peur

老是這樣也不行

妳怕見她,妳怕聽見她,妳怕無意間碰到她

不能夠讓大家知道一段已然生灰的過去,
還要靜悄悄藏在箱底,
可是黑白分明、白紙黑字的陳情書昭然若揭,
他們或許只是心照不宣地安靜

老是這樣不行

所以是要正式說明從此以後的老死不相往來,
或者談笑風生,遇見也裝沒事?

我已經在腦海裡排練三百二十八遍狠狠打在她臉上的鐵沙掌
火紅烙印
足以深刻到她的粉能夠
崩裂
宛如遠古時代的隕石撞擊

可是如果真有那一天
我是不是還是婦人之仁,且軟弱毫無縛雞之力?

是喬裝什麼也沒發生過比較厲害
還是直接上前賞她兩掌呢?

Sunday, 8 May 2011

unleashed

自從幾天前,我就睡不好。一些聲音像是揮之不去般,環繞在我的耳朵裡。
 
下午還幫媽媽去挑鞋子,想著晚上要跟她吃飯,再怎麼忙的事情都要排開。可是媽媽還是永遠都只提弟弟,永遠嘴上都只問弟弟,說家裡都沒人提醒他去睡覺,晚上沒有飯吃,為什麼學校老是在學期末給他命運一擊。

心情就此低落了。我忍不住一直反駁,因為我們的確是有照顧他的,我中午也是做了飯給他吃,我能敲他的門跟他說話,我都會。甚至禮拜五,我媽希望我回家陪弟弟,因為爸爸不在,我也不在,他一個人在家很可憐。我沒回去,於是我周六回家做了些滷雞腿、茄汁蝦子、韭菜炒豬肉、牛排、涼拌白筍、炒磨菇,還幫他刷浴室跟洗衣服,把衣服全晾起來。

怎麼說呢?
這些事情都是我國中開始,都自己一個人做的,洗衣服打掃照料自己,自己讀書考試準備出國,自己旅行煮飯,開始學著照顧另外一個人。可是媽媽老是只跟我說,小茵,媽媽不是比較疼弟弟,是因為你比較讓人放心。為什麼我比較讓人放心,值得得到的就是你對另外一個人的關心?難道以前我就都有人告訴我該早點睡,都有人固定煮飯給我吃嗎?難道我國中高中不是在更不穩定的生活底下生長過來的,你有對當時的我說過這樣的話嗎?

 我怎麼可能不照顧弟弟?我在國外的時候,從來沒忘記要幫他買東西;上班之前,家裡有菜就會幫他跟他女友做飯。媽媽跟我一起上超市的時候,儘管會提醒我要買自己喜歡的,不必只買小威喜歡的,要我多為自己想。可是她分明每一次都幫他把沒辦法負責的事情都怪到家庭身上,好像這個家徹底地遺棄了他。

其實沒有,其實我也是一直這樣活過來的,我沒有比他得到更多。對的,小威告訴她,回家的時候,有時爸爸都在隔壁幫弟弟妹妹洗澡,媽媽覺得這話聽起來很可憐。可是我會走過去跟他們打招呼,或者有時我也會安靜地回房間。

然後通常這時候,我媽又要告訴我那是個性上的差別。我根本不想多加辯論,因為那是一個很可悲的事實,我體認到這件事情,知道她把他藏在羽翼下藏得多緊,而我只能遠遠地站著看而已。

Thursday, 14 April 2011

wedding fever

from FarFetch blog

 

Wedding Fever

Unless you’ve spent the past few months living under a rock you may have noticed there’s going to be a big wedding in London on April 29th. Understatement of the century.  Seemingly the whole Western  world, and particularly England, have been gripped by such wedding fever that you’d be forgiven for thinking it was the single most important event in the universe to have happened ever. It has temporarily taken over from the Olympics as the national obsession.
The bunting is literally flying out of John Lewis, both British Vogue and Sunday Times Style dedicated entire issues to the Royal Wedding and when it comes to who will be the designer of the hallowed dress, well, let’s just say that such suspense has not been experienced since Who  Shot JR?
And whilst here at farfetch.com we’re as pleased as the next person to be given a day off in the sunshine (please!) and an excuse to drink in the afternoon, it has to be said that we’re kind of more excited about the Summer nuptials of Kate Moss and Jamie Hince (can you imagine that party???!)
But it would be churlish not to get involved at all so we’ve decided to celebrate with our favourite wedding dresses ever. No doubt Middleton, the latest object of pop culture’s affections, and her special day attire will go down in the history books, but as these ladies prove, she has some awfully tough acts to follow…

Brigitte Bardot




Given that Bardot was the original sex kitten she was hardly going to get married in your typical demure gown, but her adorable gingham dress when she married French actor Jacques Charrier was more modest than you’d expect from such a bombshell, with its high neckline and girlish pattern. But the dress’ nipped-in waist and bold, untraditional colour (it was pink) kept it quirky, and it remains a really interesting choice even today, when pretty much anything goes.

Carolyn Bessette Kennedy




Carolyn Bessette Kennedy (or CBK to her hoards of worshipping Park Avenue Princesses) was the American equivalent of Princess Diana. A beautiful, stylish blonde who won the heart of John F Kennedy Jr (the closest the country ever came to a crown prince),  she was an aspirational role model and fashion icon to a nation of women, who, like Diana died tragically early in an accident (in a plane piloted by her husband, who also died). Unlike Diana, her wedding dress was the epitome of understated elegance and taste, a simple ivory slip dress that skimmed that body perfectly.

Bianca Jagger




It wasn’t the white tuxedo that most people think, but there’s something even cooler about Yves Saint Laurent customising his trademark Le Smoking into a chic white skirt suit for you, as he did for Jagger for her wedding to one of the world’s premier rock stars. Her attire has since spawned thousands of copies, from brides hoping to channel her effortless, laid-back approach to the big day.

Plum Sykes




Sarah Burton, head designer at Alexander McQueen is the current bookies favourite to be the designer behind the Middleton dress, and if she is indeed doing it, Middleton deserves far more sartorial respect than we thought, particularly if the label’s previous wedding gowns are anything to go by. When author and Vogue contributor Plum Sykes got hitched, the late designer himself created her dress, and admirably for a man so associated with the avant-garde, refused point blank to make a ‘trendy’ piece, as she requested, stating that your wedding wear needs to be timeless, and as the only day in your life when you can totally get away with wearing a 25 foot train, you simply have to have one. The result was exquisite, and yet more proof that McQueen was no one-trick pony when it came to genius design.

Grace Kelly


As the world-famous movie star who married the Prince of Monaco, Grace Kelly’s wedding was met with a level of hysteria that rivalled that of our own Royal nuptials.  The entire thing played out like a fairy-tale, and fittingly, her elaborate dress was made by a team at MGM studios headed by Helen Rose, who created the costumes for some of the dreamiest musicals on the big screen. Given the buzz around the wedding and the state importance of the occasion, Kelly could have gone much more ostentatious with the dress, but instead it looks even more timeless for it’s simple shape, leaving all the drama to the intricate, elaborate beading and lace.

Gwen Stefani


With a reputation as a fashion maverick, the pressure was on Gwen to pull something totally individual out of the bag when she wed Bush frontman Gavin Rossdale, and she more than delivered in her pink dip-dyed Dior gown, custom made by John Galliano (pre-scandal of course) and now residing in London’s V&A Museum. Pink wasn’t the obvious choice for the singer of a band that flits between post-grunge and ska pop but the directional shape of the dress gave it edge, and Gwen looked radiantly beautiful.

Wednesday, 13 April 2011

outfit diary 1


look bad without any make-up, but I love my sheer cape.
vintage sheer cape from ebay.com, jeans from whistles, cashmere jumper from Uniqlo, leather platform from miu miu.